some explanations

WARNING!!! THIS POST IS A TOTAL DOWNER!
Here is an excerpt from a post I wrote earlier in the year:

"...most importantly, I fell in love. this was quite a shock, because I was convinced that love was a cliche novelty that didn't go with any of my shoes. Fortunately, love brought shoes with him! my insecurity about relationships seems to be dissolved. and my disdain for man almost completely gone as well. this is a good feeling and Harpo is a good man."

Harpo is still a good man, he's just not my man anymore. There was good reason for calling the relationship quits, though I can't remember it right now. Right now I am trying to figure out what makes me hard to show affection to? At what point my company becomes something to be taken for granted? And whether there was someone who was more desirable? Basically, I'm driving myself crazy and crying most minutes of most days.

So, that is why the things mentioned in the previous post make me sad. They are all things that I know Harpo needs and things I shouldn't be thinking about anymore.

boo hoo